Recently, a friend who was battling similar illnesses that I once faced as a result of the “Lyme complex” called and asked if I had ever felt lost while battling Lyme disease and related problems. she, as it is something she is struggling with a lot right now.
(* note, I haven’t had to look for any treatment for Lyme, body, mold or anything that is considered part of the Lyme complex in about 5 years, but from this was born another beast that I will talk about briefly. If not m ‘interest, scroll beyond the following lines which are also in bold / italics to continue the original story …
Although I haven’t had to deal with it for about 5 years, it’s true that I’ve been left with completely new monsters that have come out of the fog ever since: autoimmune brain conditions, including autoimmune PANS / PANDAS encephalitis caused for Mycoplasma, a Lyme disease. infection, as well as a complex mix of other incredibly strange beasts that cause relatively similar autoimmune manifestations in the brain (Since then I have been introduced to the somewhat rare type of neurology known as autoimmune neurology or neuroimmunology)
•• To get an overview, think about this:
** Autoimmune conditions: Many autoimmune problems come from the immune system which is confused and accidentally attacks the joints, tissues, etc. of the body.
** Immune system and foreign invaders: in response to foreign invaders detected by the immune system, for example, try to fight the invader, but also end up attacking your own body, usually, or often, with a propensity to this invader. The attack is aimed primarily at a system of the main body, tissues, joints, muscles or an organ as in the case of autoimmune conditions of the brain.
This is an incredibly simplistic explanation of an incredibly complex phenomenon, I am aware of.
However, for the sake of this post it seems more efficient, as it is not really the main point, but I wanted to provide some information about the problem for the curious.)))
Although I am generally seen as a more positive person, the truth is that yes, I feel that way at least once a day, if not several times a day. While it comforted her to know that someone else was feeling the same way, she also wanted to know my solution to dealing with these thoughts.
My answer surprised me, as I was also looking for a non-stop answer with no results. I told her I feel like a loser when I see others go through their lives, graduate from college, get married, have kids, start new careers, and do other exciting things that I grew up dreaming I would do too; but that there is more in their lives than what I see, just as there is more in mine than what others see.
While social media can make their lives look perfect, the truth is that they are also facing their own battles, they are enduring their own pain.
*Chronic illness and the feeling that you are doing “nothing” with your life*
We are not doing “anything” with our lives, even if it seems like we are in bed day after day, struggling to survive, but that’s all, we are fighting for our lives. I’m not sure of a more intense way of living than this.
Fighting for your life does not qualify as doing nothing with your life in any way, form or form. In fact, it means that you are doing everything with your life, everything to maintain its existence.
We are not losers. The people I know who are battling debilitating chronic illnesses are the strongest people I have ever met, and most likely never. When defeat knocks on her door, which she sometimes does several times a day, they open it and confront her. They usually don’t do it without fear, and that’s what makes them so strong. They feel scared and they do it anyway. These are the people who keep me going.
Recently, I went through a stage where I realized that I didn’t have much reason to recover and I knew that until I did, I just wouldn’t fully recover.
After many sleepless nights searching for my soul, and many times searching for my soul under the ruins of the real and mind-created tragedy, I surrendered. I abandoned my resistance, not out of some spiritual form of acceptance of what it is, but out of acceptance that I would never find an answer and was doomed to live a life of devastation and darkness. I guess the reason I gave up my resistance was, in the end, irrelevant. Because after doing that, the answer I had been looking for came to me.
A girl from another country answered her, once again asking me the same questions about which I had been arrested before accepting my imminent death. I was leaving the office of a neurologist, which in itself is a big signal that I had given in to defeat, as I am not a big fan of Western medicine and I fell asleep with pills, when an alert appeared for email on my phone. I had forgotten to reply to, or even open, messages of any kind.
After all, he no longer had anything to offer, or so he thought. However, for some reason I opened this particular email. It was from a girl who claimed she desperately needed help because she was at the end of the rope and ready to give up. She asked me to call her as soon as possible.
Given that I had already cut my own rope and thrown in the towel, it seemed unlikely that I could help her do anything other than a free fall into nothingness. Still, I called her when I got home.
I don’t know why, and I’m learning that it doesn’t matter so much why things happen. Rather, it matters what we do with them.
When I spoke to her, she was full of trauma. I did my best to calm her down, to calm her down, even if only for the short time we talked. He knew that he could not really take part in the battles and victories of his civil wars, and he could only, at best, offer a momentary relief from distraction. Also, just ten minutes of having a person in the world really listen without and acknowledging your inner confusion without judging even ten minutes is invaluable. It is only the moments of these ten short minutes, or as long as the feeling of not being alone lasts, that the seeds are planted for lasting changes for the better. to help us in the darkest moments of life.
What we don’t realize is how to spend a small amount of time devoting ourselves to thinking about our own pain, which only amplifies the suffering we are desperately trying to grope, to hear the cries for help from others during their own. pain not only reduces your suffering, it reduces ours.
Not only do we give them a hand to get out of the hole they are trying to get out of and we pull them up, even if it’s only an inch, but at the same time they do the same for us.
When I finished talking to this woman about why she should go on with her life and not give up, I realized why I didn’t either. These people need me, and I need them.
you and me, we need each other.
As bacteria continue to evolve, it becomes clear that we need to do the same.
It doesn’t matter why we are the “unfortunate” who were selected for the “evil” of the universe to endure so much pain and darkness (by the way, we each face our own version of darkness, we they are not really a group of victims who suffering is unique a.
It’s part of the experience of all humans, we just don’t see the darkness of others as clearly or obviously “bad” as ours. But … it’s okay, because others feel the same way about our suffering. The thing is, we are all victims in some way, though is it is not good to be weak and to stay a victim who blames circumstances for not living purposefully), no matter how we endure it.
What I’m trying to say is that we have the option to just hold on or say it very clear i without elegance– to catch us shit and work to turn it a or. A little more elegant would be to say:
we can choose to face the darkness in the face and kill ourselves dragonsand persevere and find meaning in spite of the horrors of life.
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